“This is the crisis we’re in: God-light streamed into the world, but men and women everywhere ran for the darkness. They went for the darkness because they were not really interested in pleasing God. Everyone who makes a practice of doing evil, addicted to denial and illusion, hates God-light and won’t come near it, fearing a painful exposure. But anyone working and living in truth and reality welcomes God-light so the work can be seen for the God-work it is.”~John 3:19-21 (MSG)

Today, as I sit down for some much needed quiet time before my God, I am hungry.  I pour out my heart to Him, as it seems my heart quickly turns aside from what I know if I look away from Him for very long.  My busy life leads me to other things and my heart grieves; it longs to be with you, Lord.

He quickly answers my need.

For it is your desire to find Me that causes Me to draw nearer to you.  Only this desire moves My heart this quickly.  I know your heart is to find Me, and you, therefore, will.

Do not mind the search, for it is as pleasurable as the find!

How can it be that a God such as this may be easily found, when hiding everywhere is possible for Him?  He desires you and to see you looking for Him is of greatest delights!  How can it be that you would never tire of looking, ceaselessly, searching to know more?  It is that will which I designed for you, so that our wills collide!  And in this collision, truth is known and understanding is given to you by Me.  For it is your desire that meets Mine!

I see you through it all.  See Me through it all, as well.  To see your God through the moments that are blurry and confusing, to make sense in a world of craziness when all hell seems to be unleashed on mankind, this is our goal.  To withstand it.  To portray CALM in the Storm, to KNOW Christ in the midst of the sinking ship, under the waves of a current of confusion.  How can we be certain of anything?  How can one BE still and KNOW anything at all, let alone to BE still and KNOW that I am God?  Consider it backward, this is the truth.  You can KNOW that I AM God only IF and WHEN you are still.

So, BE STILL for the knowing, stay still to endure in the confusion; standing strong in the midst of all confusion is dependent only on ONE thing- IT IS I AM.

I Am in all of it.

See the I Am in your need.

Feel the I Am in your presence.

Say the I Am in your doubt.

Hold onto the I Am in your fear.

Nothing can ever come between us, my little love.  For though you are very small, your love for Me is great and I see it!  Yes!  I feel it!  I, your God, love you through the scenes of your life, even while you were living it for other things and not for Me.  I have always loved you just this same way!  Even though when you were lost, all you knew was the losing, all the time, I planned your finding and your gain!  Waiting for you is my specialty!  I look and I wait, expectantly, of course, because I know you will return to me always.  And you can know this same thing about Me, I will remain with you always and I will deliver!  Every time you begin to doubt or look around, remember the countless times I have shown up right on time!  Springing forth out of your darkness – my Light overpowers it all!


My light streams out of the heavens at all times!  Those stars you see are reflections of my light, but they burn even when you cannot see them! Such is My light – constant – lighting up the corners of the earth and far beyond into every part of the entire universe!  How far can your little eyes see?  Ha! Sweet one, you often struggle to see what is right in front of you!  So, is My light there even when you cannot see?  Of course!  And I cause it to be this way.  Aligned with your awareness is the light of My love for you, so all who see it are also aware that this light shines out of complete darkness! Night vision!  Your hand can be right in front of your eyes, yet in the depths of darkness, it cannot be seen by your own vision.  So, what causes you to be able to see anything at all?  It is always LIGHT that brings that ability!

LIGHT!  Say, “LIGHT” and the world sees!   Speak of the light of My salvation and even blind eyes will open and see clearly!

Speak LIGHT into the depths of the darkest soul and an opening will occur.  And with this sliver of light through the crack of the slightest opening, light which has no form will begin STREAMING out of control, FLOODING – even creating blindness to the darkness that once surrounded that soul!

Speak LIGHT into the darkness always, knowing there is much power in what you speak when you talk My language!  My language is always out of love.  So, light mixed with my powerful love is a KNOCKOUT combination – Overpowering in every way!

Overcome with LIGHT and LOVE, my child, always this is the way!  And the nearer you stay to the source of these, the greater your outpouring can be!  For who can pour out of an empty vessel?  Not even the smallest drops of anything can fall out of emptiness, so fill up here with Me!  Full to overflowing is a constant supply of all I have –  LIGHT – LOVE – GRACE – MERCY – KINDNESS – UNDERSTANDING.  FORGIVENESS is easy when you pour out these kinds of compassionate ingredients!


Dear Lord,  Let us give all freely as we receive, knowing we share the Light and Love of your goodness when we stay near You, the Source of it all. 

“How exquisite your love, O God! How eager we are to run under your wings, To eat our fill at the banquet you spread as you fill our tankards with Eden spring water. You’re a fountain of cascading light, and you open our eyes to light.”  Psalm 36:7-9 (MSG)

With love & belief, Jill